There are tons and tons of unpublished blog posts that served as a blank canvas to my angry and sometimes self-depricating thought processes of my past. I never published them, some things that I have written are mine and no one elses. Writing isn't always intended for an audience. Sometimes what you write is merely a dance with one of your demons. You do the dance, you bow, and you thank God that it's over.
I don't think in the same process as I did when I was going through a time of emotional disturbance and mental turmoil. Therfore, I do not write in the same way either. There is no longer that NEED for relief because I have fulfillment in life that I did not have back then. Still, I miss writing.
Is it bad that I don't know how to write when I'm happy? Why is sitting in front of a type-writer so much easier when you're depressed? I want to write, like really write, and I can't get myself to be able to do so. All I know is, if my writing abilities hit the road when I finally kicked depression and anxiety out of my life - then let it be. There is nothing worth letting those two back into my life.
But there's something that tells me I was a good writer before I was a sufferer of depression, I think I'll get my writer's swag back, but I need inspiration. How do you fuel your creative writing?? Help!
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