conflicted blogger

I've neglected my blog a lot lately.  It seems every time I find a moment to post, I get too overwhelmed thinking about what all I have to write to "catch up".  I regret not posting more regularly because the feeling of falling far behind on the blog gives me this weird kind of anxiety that I really could do without.  I guess that's why I have just sort of thrown in the hat and walked away without considering what all I was walking away from.

I miss sharing my life on here.  I miss the interaction with my blog friends and the incredible sense of belongingness that is unique to this social community.  A big part of me really wants to be gung-ho about blogging again while other parts persuade me to think otherwise.  Even when I do have the time for a "catch up" post, I lose the motive to do so for some reason or another. 

I do not want to continue to neglect this blog.  I don't want the gap between entries to intimidate me from posting the way that it does.  I don't want to feel like I am writing for others. Instead, I want to write for myself but help and inspire others in the process.  I don't want to be chained by the expectations of  being a "blogger", but be freed by the fact that this is a place for me to express myself in any way, shape or form that I want to.   I want to write like I did when I first started this blog - with passion, with drive, with self-need.

So here's to getting back in the groove of things.... MY WAY. 

peace & love

baily  

I'm BAAAAACK!

"That's all we are - just stories.  We only exist by how people remember us, by the stories we make of our lives.  Without the stories, we'd just fade away."

-Charles De Lint-